很爱很爱你

很爱很爱你，所以愿意值得让你，往幸福的地方飞去。
很爱很爱你，所以愿意值得让你， 往自由的地方飞去。
很爱很爱你，所以愿意值得让你， 往开心的地方飞去。

傻

昨天，我真的很傻。

我傻到很想跟他分享我的喜悦。

但最后我没有做到。

其实，我真的很想很想很想跟他分享。

但我知道，他也没有兴趣要听我的故事了。

因为，我在他的心里已经不重要了。

The end of the world?

who will stay beside u when the end of the world?
who the person u like to stay beside u?

the person i would like to stay beside is HIM, before both of us broke up.
but now, i would like to stay beside my friends or my family.
^_^

它！

今天去看JUNIOR们的彩排，回想起当时的我有多么的快乐。
但直到知道背后的运作后，才知道自已的心已经被彻底的背叛。

看看现在当初跟我属于一样的人，一个一个的都有任务在身。
只有我，是一个闲人。
有时候，真的会感到很自卑。
但也许，我真的没有哪个料的关系吧。（真材实料）

我时常问我自已，为什么还要留下来。
理由很简单，就是要找回我当初的快乐。

可是有时又会很矛盾。
有时候我会对我自已说，如果要挽留我对它的心，最好的办法就是让我尝与在内。
不然，我会渐渐的疏远了。
可是，事实就是那么的残酷。
他们不需要你的帮忙。
他们要的是你的ATTENDENCE 而已。

我真的怕有一天， 我将会对我这个又爱又恨的它道别。

raining day

rain rain go away, i wan my sunny day.
rain rain go away, i wan go out to play.
rain rain go away, i wan a silence place.

when r u going to stop, rain?
o.o

我的心声

有时候，我真的很傻。
傻到相信你所说的谎。

有时候，我很单纯。
单纯到让你一次又一次的伤害我那脆弱的心灵。

有时候，我很厚面皮。
厚面皮亲自找你，但你每次都拒我以千里之外。

有时候，我很有耐心。
耐心到晚晚都等到你的信息才敢睡觉，但你都没回复我，一次也没有！

也许，分手是你给我的洒脱， 而我给你的却是你的自由。

放心吧，我会慢慢的把你给淡忘掉在我的脑海里以及我的心里。

nothing i can do

i really dunno how to fact him when i knew that he will coming to library later.
i keep saying i dun wan face it anymore. on the other hands, my mind keep thinking about him.
i think i am really need him but nothing i can do to change our faith.
:'(
I am a rat keep running from the cat right now...
this kind of feeling is quite suffer.
i really dunno how to do to overcome it.
is dam hurt... hurt until no mood to do anything even study also cant.
i am now living under a dark without a light.

for myself！

有人說，忘記一個人是需要時間的，
但其實忘記一個人根本就不用時間，
因為無論你怎麼做，也忘不了一個人，
發生過的一切，出現過的一切，永遠都存在...

忘記一個人需要時間，那是因為他不想忘了，
一年，十年，就是一百年也不夠，
真正想要忘記一個人，最快最直接最有效的方法，
就是當作彼此從來都沒有相識過，
不見面，不聯絡，即使再想念一個人，
也只能告訴自己，我和他已經不可能了...

即使偶爾想起了他也不要緊，至少你已經習慣了沒有他的日子...

cruel !

y u can put a smile on ur face after broke up?
y u can communicate with other with ur brightest smile?
y u can pretend nothing happen between us and live ur life on?
y u can eat and sleep so comfortable everyday?

these actions are so cruel toward me!
i am the one who act like an idiot who still care for u!
i am the one who feel so sad after saw these action
i am the one who cant sleep well every night. 
i am the one who cant live a balance life right now.
i am the one who living my life with a emo feel.
i am the one who scare of facing people right now.
i am the one who not dare to talk with other people right now.
i am the one who always eating unhealthy meal right now.
i am the one who suffering right now.

do u know?
i guesses u dont know about it at all!
coz u just know how to spend ur extra time and life after broke up with me.
u such a fucking person in my life!
cruel man in the world!
 

feeling

i know i cant change the fact, it did happened.
i cant pretend i dunno about it.
fact is the fact, cant change anymore.
just let the time to heal my heart right now.
i been telling myself these words frequently nowadays.

i though i can let it go like nothing happen before.
in fact, i still will crying in the night when i think about it or hear some song those related to our memories.
because i am a human being not a robot.
i have the feeling to tell what is right or wrong.

but all i wan to say is be with u is my right decision.
no matter how much the time files back, i will admit it.
no matter how much chance i have, i will still choose the same decision.
coz i admit i have a feeling toward u.
girl not simply walk together and agree to become his partner without a FEELING.

so next time, if the girl got feeling toward u, dun disappointed her.
if u wan her, u must protect her and love her by contribute more feeling toward her.
dun hurt her heart, once u hurt it, u will continue keep hurting her.
so stop ur greedy and unforgivable action!
dun hurt a girl's heart anymore.
is not a funny action to hurt it.
u think is funny?
den go try and hurt ur mum heart, u will find out the outcome soon! 

i wonder why?

i am still wondering what the main reason that u broke up with me?
the way i treat u were not good enough?
the way i talk to u were too rude ?
or ...
u already found a new girl that can replace me away in ur heart.
or ...
u really are a greedy person who willing to sacrifice the dating time in order to have more freedom.

did u know. 
i was so shock at that time, when u said that u had no feeling toward me anymore.  
mean u already not love me or passion me anymore.
u found me as a burden gradually.

the funnies part was, before one week of broke up.
u bring me when to KL.
we had fun along the journey. 
after came back for 4 days, u announce u wan to break up with me.
what a funniest joke in my live!

until now, i still cant believe that!
it is a total eclipse of the heart.